And no, it's not a war on terrorism.
It's not even a war in fact. More like the exam week that I'd be havin in 2 days time.
For what it's worth, I have been studying for them in the past...well yesterday. I know it's not much but I guess it's a start at least.
Data Comm's on Saturday.
Engineering Economics on Wednesday.
Optoelectronics on Thursday
Applied Telecommunications on Sunday
And I still haven't taken my exam slip yet. Gotta remember to do it tomorrow. Or else somebody gonna feel like a jack ass the day after that.
I have been thinking quite hard about my future lately. I mean in terms of what to do after I graduate from this place. I mean, I could work with TIME i suppose. But that would mean breaking the contract with YTN and that means I'd have to pay them back a hefty amount of cash. Just when I thought I'd wanna save up some to get married. :P
So what does that leave me up with? Probably the best option IS to work with TNB. And hopefully I'd get a good placement in their ICT department. Demmit I don't wanna have to work in a place I don't like!!
So far my carry marks are OK I guess. Hopefully I can do just as well on the finals.
Insya Allah.
I LOVE NEW YORK~~
Well that statement is quite subjective actually. By loving New York I meant I loved the fact that I could mencarut at all the new yorkers and do it with a straight and smily face, n they'd think im just a frenly bloke tryin to say hello.
I don't however love NY for the smell of piss in their subway. At least Malaysian don't do that. Not to my knowledge I suppose. We don't do it at the subways at least. We rather like to do it along the walkway from KTM KL to the Pos Malaysia main building, if you know what i mean. Haha..
Newho, I rather much enjoyed the trip I had. Makes all the hard work I did over the week before all the worthwhile. 3 papers. 1 report. 1 assignment. Zul Saadon. 5 days to get it done. The experience i got from NY = priceless.
I seem to be really enjoying myself all the while there. Playing backpacker/amateur photographer. Hahaha! But really - I had so much fun! Perhaps I was in need of a break. I guess now I know why some people likes to travel a lot. I can relate to that.
The trip began with a trip to New Haven - went to Pn K's old place, Yale University. Nothing much is brewing there. Got to see some parade though. Columbus Day parade to be more precise. Don't know what they're suppose to celebrating about though. Don't care much really. At least I got to take some nice pics off of them. Or at least I'd like to think I got some nice pics off of them. But hey, how can you not like a visit to the YALE. Well, maybe not if you're not a geek like me. I mean, it's YALE!! It's not you're typical average university we're talking about here. Or maybe um just exaggerating a wee bit too much. Fine. Sue me.
I guess I wont be doing much of writing down much what I had been doing there in here. It gets kinda lame after awhile. And I'd rather be tellin you upfront what it feels like rather then typing it down. For those interested, see my album. And no, its not available online. Only a select few has them photos - you could see me, or them, to view those pics. (for those of who has my NY albums, you must admit you gotta feel a bit special having them photos rite?..hehe..i know, i love u guys too..group hug..:) )
I miss being there. Not to say that I wana stay there forever, but I miss the sense of adventure I had while being there. Carrying a backpack. Got a map on the back of my jeans. Passport strapped on the chest. Camera's up and running. Somehow it felt gud. Hahaha. I guess it was my little adventure. Exploring Manhattan - gone up and down the subways, fast walking through chinatown, little italy, soho...pity i didnt make it to harlem, queens and bronx. fuckin far away. lots a miles, not enuf time. But for a guy whose main objective is to attend the SIFE WC, I think I did pretty gud covering the distance I did.
Speaking of the WC, the United States won. I guess I really couldn't blame them. I mean if they were helping Darfur, could you really like not expect them to win? They were helping the friggin Darfur people!!. Fuck. How the hell can you top that? Perhaps you can go to Myanmar and help them monks. Or curb global warming. I dunno guys..but at times during their final presentation I kinda felt like they were way out of our league. But then again, who's to say what's what. Gotta take a closer look on how the marks were given thats for sure.
But enuf about SIFE. I'd rather my thoughts about SIFE and all the politics be kept to a minimal exposure. You know ever since I got the president title last year I've been quite a secretive mutha*** with what I think of things and shit. I don't like enjoy it, but it's not like I gotta choice. For me, since I can't sweetmouth my way around people, I better shut the hell up. Better people me see me stupid then know im stupid I guess. I dunno. I just like to play it safe. For the time being.
Old habits die hard. I guess even when im no longer president, I still find it quite hard to write stuff down openly as I did before. Must be the chinese blood in me I suppose. Always trying to act mysterious and be secretive ALL THE TIME. Haha. Paranoid.
New York. New York. Im quite an innocent guy actually. A naive type of person. Usually - almost all the time, I try to see the best in people. Still do in fact. Which was why I was pretty shocked to see the guy sitting beside me drinking wine while in flight to NY. Or seeing people clubbin in a..inappropriate manner. But then again what appropriate-ness do you expect to see in clubs? And what the hell was I doin in a club? (hahaha..you can blame teenage curiosity for that, wink! wink!) I guess what i'm trying to convey here - is that I'm quite new to this stuff. I mean to the REALITY of things in the so called adulthood. Malays can fuck, can drink, can do whatever the hell they want if they so chooses. Big deal. I guess that is the reality that I have to deal with. You know it's one thing to see those vices on TV, and it's another seeing them in live action. Haven't seen people fuck in front of me though.
What the fuck.
You know sometimes I can't imagine what Malaysians would be like in the next 5-10 years or so. Would we be like go back to the 70s? Or would behave more Islamically? I sure hope it's the latter. Sure would make parenting a whole lot easier. Easier on the wallet. Easier on the headache. Easier on the conscience. Just...easier on a lot of stuff.
Now I sound like my dad. Hmm..maybe I should be married right now already.
Yeah right.
So it has been what, like 2 months now since sife was practically my life. Since then i've been like distancing myself from it and all that is related to it. Not a nice thing to do, i know - especially if you're the president. Some might call it selfish even. I guess I can't object to that I suppose. But I guess the way I see it, in life there's priorities. One need to be able to differentiate between what one wants, and needs. And I guess at the moment, I need to study. I need more time to be able to study in the manner of my own choosing. I guess last semester really taught me a lot in terms of pressure management - to the extent that I dont think I want to sit in that position again. It's been hectic. It's like walking down a thorny path. Or maybe I'm just exaggerating stuff up. Hahaha.. Guess at times I don't think I have it in me to lead people. At least not yet anyway. No zero to hero for me. I think.
Life after SIFE is good. Not saying that all is bad while I was with SIFE. I did learnt a lot while I was there. It's all a matter of looking at things from a perspective. From different angles. I mean if people hadn't been scolding me throughtout the year, how the hell would I know that I actually don't make a great leader? Yep - no one would've known. At least now I know where I lack and maybe later if i feel like it i could change. As if I want to. Hahahaha...i'm such a stubborn person.
SIFE IS LIFE
STRIVE FOR SIFE
BUT DONT MAKE SIFE YOUR WIFE
- Lord Vader
The guy will be leaving in october if i'm not mistaken. He will be missed.
In other news, me and my pals went to PD this mid break. Spent like 3 days, 2 nights, and approximately RM100 there. On the first day we went to Melaka, saw the A Famosa fort, later went to Umbai to have ikan bakar. Nice place.
....Somehow i've lost my enthusiastic-ness in writing this blog right now. Demmit. Maybe I'll continue later when i feel like it. If there's such a time i suppose..
Ah-ha. by the way. I've suffered quite a sunburn from the trip. Now my face is like a scaly snake. Say it few more times!!! Scaly snakes scaly snakes scaly snakes..hahah
Later.
Yeaakk...thats right. Um back! After having long gone abandoning this blogging thing. Well, it was..with a reason after all. Coz you can't be the president and opening ur trap all at the same time can ya?
Maybe some people, but not moi. Nah-ah. I'll save the SIFE stuff for laters..after the finals perhaps. Lots of juicy stuff too! Hahaha..
Anyways right now I'm in my final week of industry training. I'm gonna miss it a lot. it was a helluva time, learned lots of new and interesting stuff, been to a few sites here and there, travelled hundreds of kilometres - damn nice experience. Got paid doing the stuff you like - BONUS!!. I even managed to get my INTRO CCNA cert during the weekends - DOUBLE BONUS!!!. If only i could fetch that ICND cert too..well..i guess tht'll be asking too much now would it.
Tomorrow i'll be going back to Kolej Komuniti Selayang to settle a score with the webserver. Pissing me off la that sharepoint thing. Aishh~.
Yeah..i know..i know...it's a pretty short blog considering the time i've been gone. I'll make it up later, after the SIFE National. Till then,
Assalamualaikum.
